It sucks doesn’t it? Watching the one you love give his love to someone else. In your mind, he’s making a mistake. Because you’re the only person he should be with.
It’s funny. You never actually told him how you felt. But would it even have mattered? One part of you tells you that what is meant to be will be, yet the other part urges you to fight for what you want. In the beginning, you let this second part take over. You decide to fight. So you scheme and you plot and you plan. You obsess over how to get rid of the other person, and you convince yourself that he is meant to be with you.
But one Tuesday afternoon you see the two of them together. You watch the way he looks at her, how his face lights up in her presence and how his eyes shine when he smiles at her. Your inner romantic sighs at their love and you know you have to let it go. Because all you want is for him to be happy, even if that means him not being with you.
So you act brave. You act like he doesn’t make your heart flutter every time he smiles at you. You act like you’re incredibly happy for him, even though your heart is breaking on the inside. You act like it doesn’t affect you. You fake a smile as you see their pictures on Facebook. You look away when you see them together, because even just seeing them talk to each other makes your heart ache. You imagine scenarios where he wakes up one day and realises that you were everything he ever wanted. You imagine scenarios where you finally get to be with him. Because miracles do exist. Don’t they?
Unrequited love is beautiful. Yes, it’s incredibly painful but it’s also so pure. Don’t you get it? Continuing to love someone so much, while knowing that you will never get that kind of love back from them. Loving with no expectations. Just loving. I think that’s the most beautiful thing in the world.